Here's to Family

The results of the CT scan my mom had a few weeks ago showed no growth in her tumors. Only the tumor in her thyroid shrunk just a little. Because of these results, the doctor decided to keep her on folfox (the current chemo she has been on) for another two months of treatments. She will have another CT scan at the end to check the progress again and decide from there if there will be any changes.

From the talks I've had with her and check in calls, she gets tired more frequently now. Her hair has started to thin again. She has even started feeling nauseous and throwing up (sorry mom, but friends should know). I will catch her working on her quilts and doing things she loves which makes me feel so grateful. I am so happy she has energy to keep going. However hard it is and however sick she feels sometimes, I know she keeps going for us, her kiddies. I wish our family was closer so that we could be more helpful and share more memories together, but I know even when we can't see the daily struggles and feelings she has, that she thinks of us and finds it in her to keep going. I know we all think of her often and are amazed. There is nothing better than family and I feel so lucky to have mine. For those who haven't heard, the youngest in our family, Jason, is leaving in August to serve a two year LDS mission in the Philippines. I know it was a hard decision for him to make, but hard as it was our family is so proud of his decision. In January, we will welcome home Ian who is serving his mission in San Diego. My mom has been holding strong especially for him. He was gone when we learned about the cancer. I know when the two of them meet again, it will be a very sweet reunion. There is something about our family being apart, but feeling close. I love knowing I have them forever.

Pains

On Tuesday the 17th...
(which also happens to be my wedding anniversary)
Mom was having pains in her shoulder and side.
She laid down and had trouble breathing.
By this time Garrett and I were in Seattle celebrating
and had no idea what Mom was going through.
My dad checked in with her.
After calling the nurses and checking with the doctors,
they told her to go to the emergency room.
My dad drove her.
Everything turned out to be alright.
No blood clots, infection or anything they were worried about.
The doctor there said it is probably just
pains from a dying tumor.

When we got home from Seattle,
Jason updated us on where our parents were and
how Mom had been feeling all day.
They did not come home until around 1:00am.
This, to me, was a little taste of what it will be like
to be living far away.
I won't know right away how Mom is,
I won't be able to help her.
I will feel helpless.
How awful.
Even though everything turned out to be more than ok,
I couldn't help but think about "what ifs" and "whens."
Like, what if Mom needs help when I'm in Charlotte.

I'm so glad it was pains from a dying tumor.
and not a new one.

January 26, 2012 And All That Led Up To It

Beginning early 2011,

my mom had been feeling low abdominal pain.

Really low. She says the pain would come and go and to her,

felt like it could be gas pains.

She would feel tired and not as energetic as she normally is.

Feeling tired like that was not exactly an alarm.

My mom is known to be deeply involved

with various projects and, well, it can make you tired.

Not exactly a red flag.

In December of 2011, which is also the month she turned 45,

she very quickly developed

a lump on her neck the size of a walnut.

My husband and I were living 5 1/2 hours away while he finished his last year in college. He graduated in December and we came home for 4 or 5 days before leaving for Christmas with his family on the east coast. We left and returned home January 3, 2012.

That was the first time I had seen the lump.

I was shocked it was so big because

I did not notice it when we were with her last.

Other odd signs came up in December.
A few times she would become so exhausted while showering
she had to sit down in the shower to rest.
She felt like she would pass out and
did not have energy to hardly stand.
Suddenly every time she brushed her teeth
she would gag and to the point of sometimes throwing up.
She would feel nauseous when her stomach was empty
and at the same time her appetite was decreasing.

January 4th

The first doctors appointment.

Our concerns were the lump on her neck,

the abdominal pain as well as some side pains.

Her doctor was leaving for France so they set up appointments to run tests and then
they would meet again after she came back from overseas.
The doctor suspected a cyst on her thyroid.

It did not seem life threatening.

At the time we were unsure if all of her pains were related.

The doctor ordered an ultra sound and some blood tests
to look further into it.

Life went on...a little too fast if you ask me.

January 6th

She was diagnosed with RP. Retinitis Pigmentosa,

a degenerative eye disease

that has no cure and leads to blindness.

Her peripheral vision is narrowing.

At the time this was the most devastating news we had ever heard.

My mom loves to quilt and create things and has a very artistic eye.

She has a real talent for design in a variety of areas.

The thought of her going blind was unimaginable.

It is because of her sight that she has developed into who she is.

January 9th

She went in for her blood tests.

January 10th

My parents 25th Wedding Anniversary,

and the day she went for the ultrasound.

January 11th

Her son, Ian, my brother, left to serve a two year mission

in San Diego, California for

The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints.

She received the results from the tests.

Blood test showed slightly elevated liver function and iron deficiency.
Ultra Sound found that the lump on her thyroid to be a solid mass.
It also showed that her liver was covered in lumps
the largest being 11 cm (4 1/2 inches) in size.

January 12th

She went for the CT Scan.

January 13th

Results from the CT Scan
The CT Scan confirmed the lumps in her liver and her thyroid
and also showed several lumps in her lungs.

January 23rd

She went in for Biopsies of the liver and lump on her thyroid.

January 26th

The world stopped.

She was diagnosed with Cancer.

They do not know which kind yet. They are suspecting colon cancer.

From the biopsies, the tissues pulled from the liver and thyroid

exhibited characteristics like tissue found in the intestine/colon area.

We go in Wednesday, February 1st to meet with an oncologist.

I am humbled and overwhelmed by the blessings I have already seen.
The most important, to me, being,
Garrett and I, living here with my family.
THAT is why we are here. I have no doubt.
The timing could not have been more perfectly aligned.
No other time would we be living with them, for this long.
Garrett graduated in December and begins law school in the fall,
giving us a good 8 months to be in "limbo"
giving us time to be here.
Through that I feel our Heavenly Father's love.